Paint me the colors you want
Dress me like a puppet
If you want a smile, a laugh, a giggle
I'm here to cup it

Everything's still gray here
It's never wonderful for me
Never bold or fun or exciting
Nothing to actually see

I apparently got the end
God knew I could deal
with pain, rejection, boring
leaving nothing to steal

But sometimes it gets painful
I just want to quit
To give up, just cry
burn out what was lit

Let me go on pretending
I don't care
I've mastered putting on faces
Slap on emotions to wear

Pretending I adore
Supporting what I miss
Wishing it were me
Taking that sweet kiss

No happy ending for me
Not one fairy tale
I just have nothing to do
But I have to simply prevail

In the end I'll still be empty
but I still know that I'm here
fighting for what I have
waiting for the next year

Waiting for time to pass
Letting my life go on pending
hoping, praying, wondering..
will I ever stop pretending?